For my father…

My dad is one of the strangest people I will ever know. Strange in a good way though. I think that he is everything that a father is supposed to be to his baby girl. When other people see us together they always tell me: “Aaw your dad is so cute…he loves you so much!”

When I was in my teens I gave my dad a bit of a hard time, but as I have gotten older I have started to realise that he does really love my brother and I so much. Also, I have realised that all the things that he has tried to teach me actually do make sense and are trueJ.

He is a really sweet father and I am glad that I have him as my dad. I think the thing I love most about my dad is that he is a very positive person. He only looks for the best in people and he goes for his dreams. To see someone who can be so positive and ambitious in life is really refreshing. His positive attitude inspires me and I love that! He always makes me laugh by telling me the weirdest jokes that only he really understands, but they are really funny nevertheless. I love that my dad can make me laugh because we have lots of fun together!

 I love my dad very much and am very grateful that he is my father!

The last lecture…

This is my last year of study. It has been a long five memorable years. As it comes to its end I find myself quite saddened by this (believe it or not). My student life has been great…so great that I extended it by one year (if you catch my driftJ). I wish that I could actually extend my studies by another year ha ha, but I think my parents would kill me.

So the time for me has come to enter the real, scary world and start earning my own money. I will however never forget what I have learnt through my study years, all the experiences I have made and all the friends I made along the way.

I don’t know what the last lecture will be like, but I think I will be sad to know that I will no longer be attending lectures. Most of my classes are very fun and interesting…others not so much, but nevertheless they will all be missed. I will be sad when I leave, but I will be back hahahahahaha (evil laugh)!!!!

I will be back to get another degree and then I won’t be sad and I will make new experiences and meet new friends and learn new things about life and whatever else. So, I’m excited for that! Let the learning continue!

For my mother...

My mother…I don’t even know where to start. Is it even possible to love someone so much that you can’t even describe it? I guess so…because that is how I feel about my mother. My mother is the most beautiful person in the whole entire world to me. Everything that she does and everything that she stands for can’t be described in this life time. I know that many don’t understand her and many may even think that at times she is crazy, but none can say that they have never been touched by her love and amazing outlook in life. Many leave her conversation with their eyes and mouths wide open, because having a conversation with my mother is like stepping out of this evil world for a while and experiencing something real, like you have never experienced real before. Many times I sit and think…where does she get it from? Where does she come from? Who is she? To this day it still remains a mystery to me, but I am the proudest, luckiest daughter in the world to have her as my mother.

She is the only person in the whole world that knows just how to make my worst day seem like nothing ever went wrong. She is the only one who truly understands me, better than I even understand myself. She is the only one who brings real joy and peace into my life and can make me laugh and when I say laugh I don’t mean giggle, I mean screaming with laughter! She is the only one who makes all the things that I think are wrong in my life, disappear.  My mother is my best friend and I know that with her I am never alone. If ever I feel down or need to scream and shout I just phone my mother and speak to her and she does the same when she is feeling down or needs to scream and shout. It’s as if we are two small girls who can only speak to each other when something goes wrong. My mother is the epitome of strength and courage like I have never seen before.

My mother is a truly remarkable woman and without her, my life would have no meaning. She has taught me everything that I know and she has made me everything that I am. Her love to me is like soul food. I actually really cannot describe and express properly in this blog post who my mother is, what she is like and what she means to me, because honestly it’s just something I can’t describe. My mom describes our relationship like the movie ‘Spanglish’. Maybe if you watched the movie you will understand what I am trying to say. All I know is that I am my mother’s daughter!!!! J   

Watch this space.

I know what I want in life and I know what I want to be in life. How I will do it and how I will get there is something I am clueless about. That is however what makes it all so exciting…watch this space!

What is the difference between living and existing?

I have thought about this a lot lately. Many people exist in life and they go through each day simply existing. They may think that they are living, but they are really not. When you look around at the people in your life, how many of them can you really say are living???? It would be actually very interesting to go around and ask people if they feel that they are really living or simply existing.

It is interesting to see all the feeds on Facebook on what people feel and go through every day. Majority of it is pure bulls*@#! People don’t even realise how much bulls@#t they put on Facebook, it’s ridiculous, but so extremely funny at the same time.

To me, the difference between living and existing is quite large. Existing is when you go through every day, just being. You live in a safety net which you are so afraid to leave and you are so curious about how it would be to leave this safety net, but yet you can’t do it. You do what you “MUST” do and you say what you “MUST” say, because this is what you were taught and this is how you were brought up. You will never go against any of the values you were taught in life because you believe in it and opposing this is not up for debate. In fact, debating it is not even an option. The irony of the situation however is that the people who teach you your values and morals are the ones that mess you up the most…yes I am talking about parents!!!! Parents are the ones who mess up their children the most! (Not all parents, but too many.)

 Anyway, back to my point-doing what you are supposed to do, saying what you are supposed to say and living the way you are supposed to live- This is what it’s like to simply exist.

Living is what happens when you question everything in life, when you take risks, when you fail, when you can rise back up, when you do stupid things (not irresponsible), when you can be completely ridiculous, when you are real and when you are you and not afraid to be any of these things. Yes, it is extremely thrilling and worth every second of it!   

So, if anybody out there still exists, try to start living a little bit and don’t be afraid to do it!

My favourite cat in the hat book is ‘The cat in the hat???’

I have never read Cat in the Hat books in my entire life before...well at least that’s what I think. So I Googled the video ‘Cat in the Hat’ and watched it. I love animation stories and I love watching cartoons, but I’m not a fan of reading….maybe that is why I have never read this book before.

So why is ‘The Cat in the Hat’ my favourite book??? I have absolutely no idea. I watched the video and honestly it wasn’t all that interesting. I know I am supposed to be writing about why this is my favourite book, but I have nothing to say because it really did not fascinate me that much and unfortunately I can’t lie and say that I loved it. If it was ‘Dexter’s Lab’ or ‘Ed, Edd n Eddy’ then that would be a different story. Now those cartoons really get me going ha ha!

The ‘Cat in the Hat’ is cute, but too simple and boring I guess. I love simple, but I was sitting and watching this video thinking to myself ‘when is it getting to the exciting part?’, but that never happened. Well anyway, that was my ‘Cat in the Hat’ experience (no offence to any Cat in the Hat fans). For those of you, who do love this show or this book, please feel free to fill me in the exciting bits that I missed. J

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Scared to enter the real world

I really admire all our parents. They go to work religiously every day and never complain. They work hard and earn a living to provide for their families, which is so noble and admirable. Our parents worked around the age of 18 (just an estimate) and they have never stopped working ever since.

I am about to enter ‘THE WORKING WORLD’ and I’m almost terrified. The only reason I am terrified is because I will have to have a routine-Din din din! (scary sound). Routine freaks me out big time and this is why I say our parents can be admired – because they have had to follow a routine for a number of years and they never give up or complain. I salute them!

Obviously when I enter the working world I will have to have some kind of routine, but I will try my best to make it as non-routine as possible (who am I kidding?) –I’m terrified!!!!!! I may be terrified now, but I know that I will be okay. I always know that no matter what happens I will be okay.