I’ve recently discovered a hidden fear within me which is quite scary. I realised that this fear controls my life in a big way and stresses me out unnecessarily. This fear is bullying me, constantly bullying me. I live with the fear everyday and try to avoid it, run away from it, act as though it’s okay and as if I am in control of it, but this is not really the case. When this fear catches up to me I feel as though my whole world is upside down. I’m so afraid of facing up to this fear, but I know that’s what I need to do.
This fear always tries to break me down, but I believe in myself. I don’t need this fear to believe in me. When I have faced up to it, it just goes back to bullying and controlling me. I can’t get rid of the fear because it is part of my life, always staring me in my face. This fear is suffocating me.
I realise that I am allowing this fear to take over my life. I’m the only one who can get rid of the fear and find my happiness. This fear is more fearful of me. I am much bigger than this fear and can rise above it. Life’s too short to fear and be controlled.
If you have a fear that controls your life just believe in you. You never have to fear.
You're very brave :) Stay strong Meggs...your fear won't be able to touch you one day. Your words were very enticing. They actually made me a little emotional. Good writing
ReplyDeleteYou've got me intrigued. I want to know nore about your all consuming fear. My biggest fear is being rapped. Everytime I think of it, it gives me the shivers.
ReplyDeleteYou are wise and brave and your blog inspires me.
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